different phenomenon

recently, I've been crying for most every minute i lay myself in bed. 

and at times, i cried till i cant feel my own throat.

i want to find a place. yes, a place that i can please myself.

from this suffer.

if only i can escape, 

and if only there's the far-est place in map i can go.

i really want to take the step now.

alone. 

yes, alone..

i'm not ok, 
wait till i find my own word.
to let it out.